It was my high school graduation and I was surrounded by all my friends getting ready for the ceremony. Everyone in cap and gown except for me. I didn't even have a proper white blouse to wear underneath. Frantically I began looking for something that would do, but it was too late. The ceremony was beginning and I had to walk out looking like a mess. When I got to the stage, someone handed me a microphone and in front of hundreds of people I gave my speech. Mess and all. Completely vulnerable and they loved it. I felt completely accepted in that moment.
I awoke from that dream a few nights ago and realized what my spirit was trying to tell me. And it was time to stop trying to do everything perfectly, that it would be ok to put myself out there again, just as I am.
I have always found it so difficult to fully show up in life, complete vulnerability, just as I am. But who hasn't found it difficult?
I find it easy to get caught up in the shoulds of everything online business.
But when I try and follow the shoulds, it never works out. It felt so much easier way back when (in 2000) when the internet seemed to be just for fun. Artists sharing our work. No talk of the word 'niche'. And after my last blog was hacked, I thought I was done writing for good. But here I am, with a new site, new passion and a bunch of brainstorming down on paper. I feel excited to start sharing again, writing from my heart.
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